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A long time ago….

18 Apr

A long time ago…..

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Gifts from Our Lord!

24 Mar

1-1255945936kyPsAs a young girl….and as a young adult….  As a mature person….and as a middle-aged one……

I guess for most of my life, I have wondered….”Lord?..what is my gift?…tell me what to do?….I need a talent…a gift….a path!”

Well….I think….we can choose maybe anything that makes us happy, makes us smile…and is necessary for our world.  It took me a lifetime to figure this out…and although I contributed much in trying over the years…I had no major direction.

You might say, what a waste….what a loss….she never used what she was given…..

I think…and I say….oh contrare!….God gave me love for all things….all peoples….all animals….all!  I check out much!  I enjoyed much!  I loved much!   I think I did ok!  God gave me a full palette of many colors.  And I have only touched on a few with many more to go.  This lifetime will be far too short to do it all….but I will do all that I can to enjoy, investigate, and experience…..the colors.

Maybe you are a singer….an educator…a secretary….or a doctor….but I….I am a lover of the colors of all….I am here to express how truly beautiful….it ALL is!

Maybe….anyway….I will continue…with what is on my palette…until or unless….the Lord hands me a new one.

Flowers, butterflies, and fairies….

18 Mar

It is that time of year…..Slowly the flowers and leaves poke up out of the ground…attracting the caterpillars as they hatch from their eggs.  Soon the caterpillars will eat their fill and will spin a wonderful cocoon to slowly but surely morph into butterflies.

Hidden among the butterflies….if you look closely enough….you might find the fairies….

Winged wonders of imagination that say….the last life cycle is complete….we will play, dance, sing, and flutter….until time to hide again for the winter…..beginning all over again and again….in the spring.

“Red and Yellow and Pink and Green….Purple and Orange and Blue….
You can sing a rainbow”….and just maybe….see the fairies.

It’s that “trust” thing again!

28 Dec

Trust:  belief that someone, something, is reliable, honest, effective….etc.

I like that definition…effective.  I can (believe) that”they” will do whatever will “produce the desired outcome”.  Awesome…sort of clear.

Oops…I used the word “believe”….”to accept as true”.

(all definitions are from Merriam-Webster’s Learner’s Dictionary)

Is it coming together for you?  I think it means…leaning back, shutting up, giving way, handing over…the responsibility of a thing.

Responsibility?  2a.  a duty or task that you are required or expected to do.

OH!  I get it, I get out of the responsible part…and get to go straight to the done part.  awesome!

But, the kicker is…I am afraid.  My ethical part is counting on all things being done “right”…”correctly”…etc.  That trust part.  Darn…..

I trust the sun to come up, I trust the darkness to be next, I trust the ocean  to stay where it is, the land to stay where it is, the stars to be shining, birds to fly, etc.  But I have the hardest time with this trusting “my stuff” to God.  (My little, puny, inconsequential, STUFF to God. )

Sounds rather idiotic if you put it like that.  Maybe it isn’t a trust thing at all…maybe it is a CONTROL thing…..hmmmmm.

That, my friends is another story!

Listening to the Music.

8 Nov

Many friends, send me “You Tube” songs to hear…many….I have never heard before.

Some songs are joyous…frivolous…fun!  Some songs are dark, sorrowful, and sad.   I hear hope in one…and loss of hope in another.  The songs fly through all the many emotions and feelings.  Here….there….and here again.  I am one…I am none…I am all…what is this?

Listening to one today, by John Lennon…I realized…I do not hear John in this…I do not know what is his dream from this….I hear mine.  I see mine…I dream, mine.

This is truly sent from God.  My God or your God or their God….sent…through this man, maybe….but sent none the less.

And I realize…all good, all bad, all up, all down…..all of it….is given…..all of it….is sent.

Which way is forward....which way is back.

Did you ever Have?

7 Oct

Did you ever Have?.

God and His awesome sense of humor.

30 Aug

Scene With Head Bowed

Last night, I was awake…lying quietly…thinking. My neck had been really bad again. I have some type of nerve damage I guess…and every so often, the right move (or wrong one), sets the pain off again.
I of course often lay quietly and use the time to talk in my mind to God. I of course asked Him…what is with this pain? I have had one kind of pain or another…it seems all my life? Why me?
I could hear, as clearly as if God spoke in my bedroom…”You have much to learn, little one.” I was dumbfounded of course. I am thinking …can’t you just show me in the Bible? do I have to have all this pain?
The pain in my neck and back of my head…made me keep my head down…almost looking to the ground. The only way I could really be comfortable…and I thought…what is this teaching me. and again…clear as a bell….”you need to learn some humility, little one.”…..
Next time the pain is intense and I find myself miserable…I plan on looking at what it might really be….a message from God….to His “little one”.