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Gifts from Our Lord!

24 Mar

1-1255945936kyPsAs a young girl….and as a young adult….  As a mature person….and as a middle-aged one……

I guess for most of my life, I have wondered….”Lord?..what is my gift?…tell me what to do?….I need a talent…a gift….a path!”

Well….I think….we can choose maybe anything that makes us happy, makes us smile…and is necessary for our world.  It took me a lifetime to figure this out…and although I contributed much in trying over the years…I had no major direction.

You might say, what a waste….what a loss….she never used what she was given…..

I think…and I say….oh contrare!….God gave me love for all things….all peoples….all animals….all!  I check out much!  I enjoyed much!  I loved much!   I think I did ok!  God gave me a full palette of many colors.  And I have only touched on a few with many more to go.  This lifetime will be far too short to do it all….but I will do all that I can to enjoy, investigate, and experience…..the colors.

Maybe you are a singer….an educator…a secretary….or a doctor….but I….I am a lover of the colors of all….I am here to express how truly beautiful….it ALL is!

Maybe….anyway….I will continue…with what is on my palette…until or unless….the Lord hands me a new one.

Listening to the Music.

8 Nov

Many friends, send me “You Tube” songs to hear…many….I have never heard before.

Some songs are joyous…frivolous…fun!  Some songs are dark, sorrowful, and sad.   I hear hope in one…and loss of hope in another.  The songs fly through all the many emotions and feelings.  Here….there….and here again.  I am one…I am none…I am all…what is this?

Listening to one today, by John Lennon…I realized…I do not hear John in this…I do not know what is his dream from this….I hear mine.  I see mine…I dream, mine.

This is truly sent from God.  My God or your God or their God….sent…through this man, maybe….but sent none the less.

And I realize…all good, all bad, all up, all down…..all of it….is given…..all of it….is sent.

Which way is forward....which way is back.

What is important in your faith?

27 Aug

Faith.  Hope. Dreams. Wishes. Love. Beliefs.

All the above…and more perhaps.  Faith is hard to put into a definition…into a category…into a shape or mold.  Faith is that inside of us, that guides our actions, our goals, our plans, our social behaviors…It is the “bigger than life” part…the “all or nothing” part..the “to the stars and back” part.

There is nothing in faith to draw, write down, cook, develop, sing, etc.  Yet, it takes faith…to do all those things.  Faith that the pencil will do what you move it to do…faith that the food will become what you expect it to after being cooked…faith that you can invent, form, etc…and it will work….faith that your mouth and throat (etc.) will issue melodies.  There is something, in everything, unknown and taken for granted. That is faith.

To me, it is faith in all things back to God the Father, God the Son, and God the Holy Ghost.  That is my choice and my faith.  That is what is important to my faith.

You? Faith is something you must determine for yourself.  We have all been given free will to choose.  Faith is one thing no one can predetermine for you…no one can force on you…no one can even know what you mean by it….Faith is yours.

I beg you, caution you, do not assume a faith for yourself lightly.  Expect to study, delve into, experience with, all that you consider.  I have.  I chose Christianity, not lightly, not capriciously….but after much study and much earnest thought.

My faith brings joy to my life; it lifts my very soul to the stars.  My faith gives me a past, a present and a future that I cherish. My faith gives me my strength, my purpose, my love, my desires, my….everything.

I wish all these for you.  I pray that you find your faith.  I hope your soul reaches the stars.

Take my Hand.

18 Aug

I was reading Revelations today…after a strange night of dreams…that made no sense.

Appropriate…don’t you think?  Sometimes, Revelations speaks to me and sometimes it does not.  Today…little bits came out…pieces…ready to be placed in the puzzle.

There is a sorrow…a deep sorrow…so hard.   Many will surely die.  We are…or are not….already in the Book.  But there is time…more can be written…take the Hand…hold on and go the distance.

This is the story line…and underlying….the sorrow…the deep sorrow.  I connect to this sorrow…I feel it…I cry because of it.  I do not want to lose anyone.  I do not want to be “alone”….standing there…I feel alone.  But I know, behind me, over my shoulder, on the throne, is Everything.  I want us all to be there.   Join me!  Be with me…..

Belonging to Jesus

15 Aug

“For we don’t live for ourselves or die for ourselves.   If we live, it’s to honor the Lord. And if we die, it’s to honor the Lord. So whether we live or die, we belong to the Lord.   Christ died and rose again for this very purpose—to be Lord both of the living and of the dead.”  Romans 14: 7-9

Jesus knew ahead of time….from the beginning, that we would be his.  He knew and knows who believes and who won’t ever.  He still gives us plenty of room to change…plenty of room to be headed for Glory.

Whatever we do….believe or not, love or not, become or not…we belong to Jesus.  Every soul…atheist,Jew, Methodist, Catholic…etc…each and every one of us….belongs to Jesus.  Will we all be saved?  NO…it tells us that. Can we all be saved?  Yes, it tells us that too.

A dear friend passed away last week.  A person, I believe at times, God put on earth especially for my salvation.  Did I already know about Jesus?  Yes.  Did I already believe in His death and resurrection?  Yes!  Was I committed?  No.

You ask, what does that have to do with it?  Everything.  It is not just about believing in the events that matter so much.  It is the living with conviction…the believing in the worst of times…the sharing Jesus’ love with our friends and foes.  My friend was committed…she was sure…she was giving…she was loving…she was honestly loving those God sent into her life.  She was willing to let God…be God.  All she wanted in life…and in death…was to serve him.  Not words folks.  Not an idea to exclaim…She was.

I had no idea what all that meant.  I had never seen it much in action…not as an adult at any rate.  It made a profound impact on my life.

Not everyone is lovable…not every one will open up to you ….or be willing to enter this “love” with you…but maybe…they will for someone who will “come into their lives”  just like my dear friend did in mine.

Life as we know it!

10 Aug

Life….what we wake up to, what we sleep during, what we dream of.  Life….what we see as real.

My “life” changed last year.  In a split second or an hour…it changed.  What was, no longer…what I thought, no more…what I hoped, destroyed.

Why?  It never was all that to start with.  I was blind…I was ignorant…I saw what was not there.

New life?  Yes…trying…looking…hoping…loving…waiting.

Insights, visions, and fruit salad.

18 Jul

This has been a week of insights….not always what I want to know….visions…not always what I want to see….and fruit salad….I would much rather have tacos.

“Knowing your own darkness is the best method for dealing with the darkness of other people.”….Carl Jung

It is oh….so easy to know how others fail us….yet, we have a hard time knowing how badly we really fail ourselves.  (*what we know about others is merely the transference of ourselves…on them.  ) Awesome don’t you think?    You must know your own dirt….it ain’t pretty folks….but it is real.  It will ground you to what is good….this “knowing” your own dirt.  It is not to be afraid of, but is to be embraced.  Funny thing, when you “know” your own “dirt” the other guy’s dirt makes more sense and really isn’t so bad.

“The question is not what you look at, but what you see.”…Henry David Thoreau

“I shut my eyes in order to see”….Paul Gauguin

If you don’t look at something….you surely won’t see it.  If you “see” in your mind…what it is…you may avoid looking at it….love this.  Fear again, will keep us from seeing all the wonders and good because we refused to look at what we are.  Seeing and understanding connections starts in seeing and understanding what we are connecting…Us and Them.  And Us needs to be first….there is no seeing and understanding Them if we have not taken the time to understand ourselves first.  If we skip the “US” part than all we see of “THEM” is “US”.

Like Gauguin…close your eyes….focus…be surprised…but see!

And the fruit salad?….The good for us stuff.  We know…we are not stupid…what will work well for us.  Do we run to it and embrace it?…NO….we want Taco’s.   The spicy, tear up your stomach kind…everything but the kitchen sink kind. Forget stupid fruit salad.   Good for us?….sure….exciting?…..NOT.  Have it both ways…eat(drum roll)….. FRUIT TACOS.  Hey, you may be surprised at how well it will work and how well you will like it.  NO stress, tension, hate, anger, fear….just….easy, comfortable, loving, relationships.    Forever?…no, but then nothing lasts forever.  Do not worry, you get to  Know, See, and Eat…FRUIT TACOS….again tomorrow.