Archive | August, 2011

God and His awesome sense of humor.

30 Aug

Scene With Head Bowed

Last night, I was awake…lying quietly…thinking. My neck had been really bad again. I have some type of nerve damage I guess…and every so often, the right move (or wrong one), sets the pain off again.
I of course often lay quietly and use the time to talk in my mind to God. I of course asked Him…what is with this pain? I have had one kind of pain or another…it seems all my life? Why me?
I could hear, as clearly as if God spoke in my bedroom…”You have much to learn, little one.” I was dumbfounded of course. I am thinking …can’t you just show me in the Bible? do I have to have all this pain?
The pain in my neck and back of my head…made me keep my head down…almost looking to the ground. The only way I could really be comfortable…and I thought…what is this teaching me. and again…clear as a bell….”you need to learn some humility, little one.”…..
Next time the pain is intense and I find myself miserable…I plan on looking at what it might really be….a message from God….to His “little one”.

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What is important in your faith?

27 Aug

Faith.  Hope. Dreams. Wishes. Love. Beliefs.

All the above…and more perhaps.  Faith is hard to put into a definition…into a category…into a shape or mold.  Faith is that inside of us, that guides our actions, our goals, our plans, our social behaviors…It is the “bigger than life” part…the “all or nothing” part..the “to the stars and back” part.

There is nothing in faith to draw, write down, cook, develop, sing, etc.  Yet, it takes faith…to do all those things.  Faith that the pencil will do what you move it to do…faith that the food will become what you expect it to after being cooked…faith that you can invent, form, etc…and it will work….faith that your mouth and throat (etc.) will issue melodies.  There is something, in everything, unknown and taken for granted. That is faith.

To me, it is faith in all things back to God the Father, God the Son, and God the Holy Ghost.  That is my choice and my faith.  That is what is important to my faith.

You? Faith is something you must determine for yourself.  We have all been given free will to choose.  Faith is one thing no one can predetermine for you…no one can force on you…no one can even know what you mean by it….Faith is yours.

I beg you, caution you, do not assume a faith for yourself lightly.  Expect to study, delve into, experience with, all that you consider.  I have.  I chose Christianity, not lightly, not capriciously….but after much study and much earnest thought.

My faith brings joy to my life; it lifts my very soul to the stars.  My faith gives me a past, a present and a future that I cherish. My faith gives me my strength, my purpose, my love, my desires, my….everything.

I wish all these for you.  I pray that you find your faith.  I hope your soul reaches the stars.

Cacophonic

19 Aug

My new word for the day.  Love this word.

Know folks who “grate” on you?  I do.  I have them in my family. I was raised in Cacophony(discord)…and I learned it very well.

How do you deal with it?  Heck,  I did not even know about it.  I thought is was “modern, righteous, upscale, perspicacious.”   I had no idea it was all coming from unhappiness and inabilities to cope.  I copied…I mimicked…I became.  I was good at it…and loved the founders of it…my prestigious Aunt etc.

I have no clue why it started to “grate”…and show itself as cacophonic.   I only know I reached a point where I could not handle it…take it…deal with it…be silent about it…any longer.

I did not see that coming.  Honestly!  My perfect world, my organized and acceptable world, fell completely apart.

It has been almost a year.  I have been “kicked to the curb” by many of my “known” cacophonists. (new word…love it…) Yet, I am strangely very happy about the freedom I am experiencing.  One of my favorite phrases now, taken from my son(who seemed to know all about this always)  is…”does it matter, anyway?”  Sort of like my favorite poetess….Mary Engelbreit, in her famous words…”Get over it and Get on with it!”.

Do I feel guilty about loosing my “past”?  Of course I do!  But, as in all things….God was there first and gave us these words…”Warn a divisive person once, and then warn him a second time. After that, have nothing to do with him.”  Titus 3: 10

So I will continue on my path, ( which is becoming clearer every day).  Do I believe the “cacophonists” are lost?  Not at all…I just know it is not MY place to try to deal with them.

Take my Hand.

18 Aug

I was reading Revelations today…after a strange night of dreams…that made no sense.

Appropriate…don’t you think?  Sometimes, Revelations speaks to me and sometimes it does not.  Today…little bits came out…pieces…ready to be placed in the puzzle.

There is a sorrow…a deep sorrow…so hard.   Many will surely die.  We are…or are not….already in the Book.  But there is time…more can be written…take the Hand…hold on and go the distance.

This is the story line…and underlying….the sorrow…the deep sorrow.  I connect to this sorrow…I feel it…I cry because of it.  I do not want to lose anyone.  I do not want to be “alone”….standing there…I feel alone.  But I know, behind me, over my shoulder, on the throne, is Everything.  I want us all to be there.   Join me!  Be with me…..

Cast the first stone.

17 Aug

“They kept demanding an answer, so he stood up again and said, “All right, but let the one who has never sinned throw the first stone!” Then He stooped down and wrote again in the dust.”  John 8:7-8

Thou shalt not commit adultery.  The law clearly said it.  And here she was…an adulteress.  What in the world was she to do?  Caught…and now death surely was coming…and she was so young.  Why are they asking Him and why is He taking so long to answer?  I am dying here…help me.

I can imagine all these thoughts running through her mind…nervous…frightened…needing hope.

And then Jesus breaks the silence….”All right then, let us stone her…that is the law….but hey…let the one who has never sinned throw the first stone!”  I bet you could have heard the proverbial pin drop.  And Jesus?  knelt down and went back to drawing in the dirt…calmly…peacefully…quietly.

She was dying here!  Where are you, Man?  Can you not see I need help?  She fidgeted..and twisted maybe….maybe she even swore quietly to herself.  What the heck was she to do now?

Slowly Jesus stood up….and she realized they were all that was left.   What is He going to do to me?  Have I jumped from the pan to the fire?

“Where are your accusers? Didn’t even one of them condemn you?” He asked? “No Lord” she answered.

And then Jesus said….”Neither do I. Go and sin no more.”(verses 10-11)

It must have taken her a few moments to realize what was happening.  “I am not going to die today”.  What a rush of happiness, a profound sense of hope! I bet she darted off as soon as Jesus turned aside…but later… I can see her easing along the outskirts of the crowd that day…just to hear what this “Jesus” had to say….can’t you?  And then it says in verse 30…”And many who heard Him were saved that day.”  Can you not see her in the crowd of believers?  Can you not see …..yourself?

But for the Grace of God!

16 Aug

Psalm 29:2
“Give unto the Lord the glory due unto His name.”

How often have we said this….”But for the Grace of God”….when we have done something reprehensible…have committed a faux pas….been on “our last legs”.  We would most surely, have been “over a barrel”, “done in” if it had not been for “the Grace”.

Then, we stand up on stage, in front of our peers, and we glowingly accept the accolades, the cheers, the “glory”…if you will, over all the “good stuff”.  I find this amusing.

If it is a calamity….”but for the Grace of God”…and if it is success….”thank you very much”….where is the “Grace of God” then?

We sing in our churches…”Praise Him, Praise Him, Praise Him….merciful and mighty”….lol.  Are we only talking of how He “saved our bacon” or do we mean….Thanks, God,  for allowing me to represent you.

Belonging to Jesus

15 Aug

“For we don’t live for ourselves or die for ourselves.   If we live, it’s to honor the Lord. And if we die, it’s to honor the Lord. So whether we live or die, we belong to the Lord.   Christ died and rose again for this very purpose—to be Lord both of the living and of the dead.”  Romans 14: 7-9

Jesus knew ahead of time….from the beginning, that we would be his.  He knew and knows who believes and who won’t ever.  He still gives us plenty of room to change…plenty of room to be headed for Glory.

Whatever we do….believe or not, love or not, become or not…we belong to Jesus.  Every soul…atheist,Jew, Methodist, Catholic…etc…each and every one of us….belongs to Jesus.  Will we all be saved?  NO…it tells us that. Can we all be saved?  Yes, it tells us that too.

A dear friend passed away last week.  A person, I believe at times, God put on earth especially for my salvation.  Did I already know about Jesus?  Yes.  Did I already believe in His death and resurrection?  Yes!  Was I committed?  No.

You ask, what does that have to do with it?  Everything.  It is not just about believing in the events that matter so much.  It is the living with conviction…the believing in the worst of times…the sharing Jesus’ love with our friends and foes.  My friend was committed…she was sure…she was giving…she was loving…she was honestly loving those God sent into her life.  She was willing to let God…be God.  All she wanted in life…and in death…was to serve him.  Not words folks.  Not an idea to exclaim…She was.

I had no idea what all that meant.  I had never seen it much in action…not as an adult at any rate.  It made a profound impact on my life.

Not everyone is lovable…not every one will open up to you ….or be willing to enter this “love” with you…but maybe…they will for someone who will “come into their lives”  just like my dear friend did in mine.