Archive | June, 2010

“I hear the train ‘a coming”

24 Jun

Change is headed my way…I hear the whistle blowing…hope I like what it brings!

I was doing just fine…I liked where I was…enjoyed what I was doing…I only wanted:  more success, more money, more friends, more hope, more love, lol…more  of everything….but not change!

I did not want my life to turn upside down and inside out.  They tell ya’….be careful what you wish for, want, long for, etc.  God does have a sense of humor…and I bet He just can not resist a good kick when you happen to be “bent over picking up a stupid penny”.

Hearing what I did not want to hear, seeing what I did not want to see, the stuff I had hidden from my “sight” …screwed up my nice,” no I wasn’t happy but content”, sort of life.  Go figure!  Who in this world wants to change their view point?  change their outlook? yes, even change their “artistic style”?  This is not exactly what I had envisioned…lol…in my “dream state” of wishing.  Change….fearful…awful….change!

What will become of me… now?  Who will I be…now?  What will I ever do…now?  Why, oh why…did I sigh and long for what I did not have?…..

Well, it is done.  I have to wait and see … now.  like I said… I hear it coming.  My soul feels it, my heart beats it, my nervous spirit attests to it….change.

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It’s about love.

5 Jun

I am really sorry if some of these posts have been negative in nature.  My artistic soul leads me there sometimes.

Recently I was on a vacation.  My husband and I went to our “second home” in Tennessee and I had never been there in the early summer before.   Actually, I had never been there in any of the summer…lol.

How glorious it all was.  Everywhere I looked I saw the wonders of God’s great creation.  I not only saw it, but heard it all around me.  From the chirping of the many species of birds, to the croaking of the frogs…from the whistling of the crickets, to the rustling of the leaves in the wind…God’s work was on display…sight and sound display.

My soul was captured in peace and wonder and I was so thankful that God had shown me His world.

But I was also ashamed.  My “heart” is not always generous and I seem to have a tendency towards judgmental outlooks.  I can be snappy in judgment, snappy in voice, and even hateful in tone without even thinking twice about it.  Generosity is not my strong ‘suit’ and I frequently have to stop myself from downright rudeness.

Yet, here I was, in a world where God had laid out all this splendor …just for me – I was not worthy.  It dawned on me that He loved me very much as He seemed able to over look my shortcomings and reward me anyway.

And…that leads us to the title of this little piece.  It’s about love…God’s great love for us…Us…the small ones…the biting ones…the mean ones.  He doesn’t seem to mind or care….He just loves.

and I needed that!  Thank you God!