I like that definition…effective.  I can (believe) that”they” will do whatever will “produce the desired outcome”.  Awesome…sort of clear.

Oops…I used the word “believe”….”to accept as true”.

(all definitions are from Merriam-Webster’s Learner’s Dictionary)

Is it coming together for you?  I think it means…leaning back, shutting up, giving way, handing over…the responsibility of a thing.

Responsibility?  2a.  a duty or task that you are required or expected to do.

OH!  I get it, I get out of the responsible part…and get to go straight to the done part.  awesome!

But, the kicker is…I am afraid.  My ethical part is counting on all things being done “right”…”correctly”…etc.  That trust part.  Darn…..

I trust the sun to come up, I trust the darkness to be next, I trust the ocean  to stay where it is, the land to stay where it is, the stars to be shining, birds to fly, etc.  But I have the hardest time with this trusting “my stuff” to God.  (My little, puny, inconsequential, STUFF to God. )

Sounds rather idiotic if you put it like that.  Maybe it isn’t a trust thing at all…maybe it is a CONTROL thing…..hmmmmm.

That, my friends is another story!

What an awesome end to a not so awesome year.  Christ the Lord!

Maybe this is why we celebrate in December, folks.  Maybe this is why the year is divided the way it is.

All I know is…From feeling  “kicked to the curb” to feeling “My God is an awesome God”…all I can say is…over and over… Gloria!  Gloria! Gloria! Amen.

Gloria

Here, in the United States…we are protected.  “They” can not let us get too uncomfortable…or we might decide to “do something”.  But no, not us, we are comfortable…”they” see to that.

Anger, abuse…children or anyone…, murder, torture…these things exist.  They have always existed…since the first murder of Abel by Cain.  We just color it all up…so we do not have to “really” see.  We are the lucky ones.

In many places of the world…death, torture, abuse, …happen all around, everyday, and the bodies, the children, the people…they are just kicked out of way like so much garbage.  Those worlds are used to this…they have seen it too many times to be shocked.  Nothing is new to them.

While searching for a song today…I looked and kept looking…I wanted to share this song…but all the videos were too shocking…too graphic…and it dawned on me…that was because “I” live in the world of “Milk and Honey”.  I am not used to it.  Below is the link to this song.  It is moving, emotional, eerily beautiful…but a bit graphic.  I chose one with less…but do not watch if you are easily disturbed.

In the end…believe this…Yes, there is a heaven “for these people to go”.

With love and emotion….Rosemary Sharon

]]> http://quietly21.wordpress.com/2011/12/05/in-the-land-of-milk-and-honey/feed/ 0 quietly21 abused children http://quietly21.wordpress.com/2011/11/08/listening-to-the-music/ http://quietly21.wordpress.com/2011/11/08/listening-to-the-music/#comments Tue, 08 Nov 2011 14:18:19 +0000 quietly21 http://quietly21.wordpress.com/?p=382 ]]> Many friends, send me “You Tube” songs to hear…many….I have never heard before.

Some songs are joyous…frivolous…fun!  Some songs are dark, sorrowful, and sad.   I hear hope in one…and loss of hope in another.  The songs fly through all the many emotions and feelings.  Here….there….and here again.  I am one…I am none…I am all…what is this?

Listening to one today, by John Lennon…I realized…I do not hear John in this…I do not know what is his dream from this….I hear mine.  I see mine…I dream, mine.

This is truly sent from God.  My God or your God or their God….sent…through this man, maybe….but sent none the less.

And I realize…all good, all bad, all up, all down…..all of it….is given…..all of it….is sent.

Which way is forward....which way is back.

Scene With Head Bowed

Last night, I was awake…lying quietly…thinking. My neck had been really bad again. I have some type of nerve damage I guess…and every so often, the right move (or wrong one), sets the pain off again.
I of course often lay quietly and use the time to talk in my mind to God. I of course asked Him…what is with this pain? I have had one kind of pain or another…it seems all my life? Why me?
I could hear, as clearly as if God spoke in my bedroom…”You have much to learn, little one.” I was dumbfounded of course. I am thinking …can’t you just show me in the Bible? do I have to have all this pain?
The pain in my neck and back of my head…made me keep my head down…almost looking to the ground. The only way I could really be comfortable…and I thought…what is this teaching me. and again…clear as a bell….”you need to learn some humility, little one.”…..
Next time the pain is intense and I find myself miserable…I plan on looking at what it might really be….a message from God….to His “little one”.

All the above…and more perhaps.  Faith is hard to put into a definition…into a category…into a shape or mold.  Faith is that inside of us, that guides our actions, our goals, our plans, our social behaviors…It is the “bigger than life” part…the “all or nothing” part..the “to the stars and back” part.

There is nothing in faith to draw, write down, cook, develop, sing, etc.  Yet, it takes faith…to do all those things.  Faith that the pencil will do what you move it to do…faith that the food will become what you expect it to after being cooked…faith that you can invent, form, etc…and it will work….faith that your mouth and throat (etc.) will issue melodies.  There is something, in everything, unknown and taken for granted. That is faith.

To me, it is faith in all things back to God the Father, God the Son, and God the Holy Ghost.  That is my choice and my faith.  That is what is important to my faith.

You? Faith is something you must determine for yourself.  We have all been given free will to choose.  Faith is one thing no one can predetermine for you…no one can force on you…no one can even know what you mean by it….Faith is yours.

I beg you, caution you, do not assume a faith for yourself lightly.  Expect to study, delve into, experience with, all that you consider.  I have.  I chose Christianity, not lightly, not capriciously….but after much study and much earnest thought.

My faith brings joy to my life; it lifts my very soul to the stars.  My faith gives me a past, a present and a future that I cherish. My faith gives me my strength, my purpose, my love, my desires, my….everything.

I wish all these for you.  I pray that you find your faith.  I hope your soul reaches the stars.

Know folks who “grate” on you?  I do.  I have them in my family. I was raised in Cacophony(discord)…and I learned it very well.

How do you deal with it?  Heck,  I did not even know about it.  I thought is was “modern, righteous, upscale, perspicacious.”   I had no idea it was all coming from unhappiness and inabilities to cope.  I copied…I mimicked…I became.  I was good at it…and loved the founders of it…my prestigious Aunt etc.

I have no clue why it started to “grate”…and show itself as cacophonic.   I only know I reached a point where I could not handle it…take it…deal with it…be silent about it…any longer.

I did not see that coming.  Honestly!  My perfect world, my organized and acceptable world, fell completely apart.

It has been almost a year.  I have been “kicked to the curb” by many of my “known” cacophonists. (new word…love it…) Yet, I am strangely very happy about the freedom I am experiencing.  One of my favorite phrases now, taken from my son(who seemed to know all about this always)  is…”does it matter, anyway?”  Sort of like my favorite poetess….Mary Engelbreit, in her famous words…”Get over it and Get on with it!”.

Do I feel guilty about loosing my “past”?  Of course I do!  But, as in all things….God was there first and gave us these words…”Warn a divisive person once, and then warn him a second time. After that, have nothing to do with him.”  Titus 3: 10

So I will continue on my path, ( which is becoming clearer every day).  Do I believe the “cacophonists” are lost?  Not at all…I just know it is not MY place to try to deal with them.

Appropriate…don’t you think?  Sometimes, Revelations speaks to me and sometimes it does not.  Today…little bits came out…pieces…ready to be placed in the puzzle.

There is a sorrow…a deep sorrow…so hard.   Many will surely die.  We are…or are not….already in the Book.  But there is time…more can be written…take the Hand…hold on and go the distance.

This is the story line…and underlying….the sorrow…the deep sorrow.  I connect to this sorrow…I feel it…I cry because of it.  I do not want to lose anyone.  I do not want to be “alone”….standing there…I feel alone.  But I know, behind me, over my shoulder, on the throne, is Everything.  I want us all to be there.   Join me!  Be with me…..

Thou shalt not commit adultery.  The law clearly said it.  And here she was…an adulteress.  What in the world was she to do?  Caught…and now death surely was coming…and she was so young.  Why are they asking Him and why is He taking so long to answer?  I am dying here…help me.

I can imagine all these thoughts running through her mind…nervous…frightened…needing hope.

And then Jesus breaks the silence….”All right then, let us stone her…that is the law….but hey…let the one who has never sinned throw the first stone!”  I bet you could have heard the proverbial pin drop.  And Jesus?  knelt down and went back to drawing in the dirt…calmly…peacefully…quietly.

She was dying here!  Where are you, Man?  Can you not see I need help?  She fidgeted..and twisted maybe….maybe she even swore quietly to herself.  What the heck was she to do now?

Slowly Jesus stood up….and she realized they were all that was left.   What is He going to do to me?  Have I jumped from the pan to the fire?

“Where are your accusers? Didn’t even one of them condemn you?” He asked? “No Lord” she answered.

And then Jesus said….”Neither do I. Go and sin no more.”(verses 10-11)

It must have taken her a few moments to realize what was happening.  “I am not going to die today”.  What a rush of happiness, a profound sense of hope! I bet she darted off as soon as Jesus turned aside…but later… I can see her easing along the outskirts of the crowd that day…just to hear what this “Jesus” had to say….can’t you?  And then it says in verse 30…”And many who heard Him were saved that day.”  Can you not see her in the crowd of believers?  Can you not see …..yourself?