Posted by: quietly21 on: September 7, 2009
We are buying a second “home” for our retirement. It is as small as my home now and even more old fashioned. I said to my husband….we will be even more cramped there…the rooms are smaller…..
My bright visioned husband said….you don’t know that, we have never been inside. Always the half full guy….the optimist….he said what needed saying to me, the half empty gal.
And if that is not enough….how could i whine…about having what most folks would love to have…..a home at all….much less a second one. Can you believe my selfishness…my forever fault finding?
This is my very worst flaw…..fault finding….I have this down to an art form. I can find fault with Heaven if given the chance….and would most certainly have done creation a whole lot different…lol. Can you believe the arrogance of me?…lol
God sends me gifts, upon gifts….blessing upon blessing….and I whine….we will be even more cramped….lol. No wonder my hubby sometimes just throws up his hands and walks away from me…lol.
God is providing me a wonderful opportunity…and taking me on an adventure in a few years…an adventure He is sanctioning….a new world if you will….
Instead of sitting in a rocker to face older years…I…Rosemary Sharon….get the opportunity to blaze new trails and forge a new path and experience NEW in the twilight….not SAME…..and I whine about a larger room.
I can only pray…..Dear Lord, be patient with me…..work on me….fix me….I know I am not finished yet!
Posted by: quietly21 on: August 20, 2009
Today my beautiful betta fish, Samson, died. I think his tank was too toxic or something and for my next betta, I will have a testing kit. He was only 2.
Samson sat on my desk and every day, he would flip at me….whirl in his tank…pout if I moved his toys…(Tiggers and a Pirate’s of the Caribbean mini puzzle, and a penguin…that sat outside around his tank)….He was very particular and if after cleaning…his tank was turned different….he might not have anything to do with me until he got used to it again…He would come up to my side of his tank…where I sit….and flare out…as big as could be…when he was ready to resume our friendship…..He was friendly, proud, loving, and I loved him back….a fish.
This made me think, of all the people….the pets….dogs, cats, fish, bugs, …that I have had in my life and loved…even the neighbor’s kids and their pets…..I love these …and I am so afraid at times that I will never ever see them or “feel” them ever again.
Then I think of heaven and of Jesus…..and how He loves all of us, and even though there is maybe no mention of all our “pets” and things…..I know…that a Lord who is able to love me without reservation….would also love Midgie, and Mitzie, and Bear, and Little Boy, Georgie, Dolly and Diamond… and on and on…many more….and yes, even Samson….a fish… These friends, have enriched my life, given me joy, and returned…yes I said returned…my love. I also know, that a God who loves all these things…will not let them simply “be no more”….after all, in eternity, in the forever and ever… there is surely room for a dog….a cat….a bird….and yes…..a fish!
Posted by: quietly21 on: August 17, 2009
Hallelujah! and we start a new week, a new school year, a new season (almost) and for some…a new life…..yahoo!
As I was doing my devotionals this morn. it kept coming to me …over and over, again, my friend..(lol)..that we can work and work and work and work….and without God holding onto the wheel and guiding us, we are merely going in circles, like someone lost in the woods.
My son was lost on his 3 wheeler last week. He and his friends rode on and on and finally figured it all out when they realized the tracks they were following, were their own. They had been driving around and around in a big circle. Isn’t that the way of it?
When we follow our own tracks, our own path, if you will….we never really get anywhere. There can be no “reaching the destination” on our own. God alone knows the way. He will guide us, lead us, make us successful, send us blessing, even…..but all this COMES FROM HIM.
Once we realize that we can not find happiness or success by doing that which we do ourselves….we can then, look to God, and plot a good course…to Glory.
Posted by: quietly21 on: August 4, 2009
Do you ever have a tendency to measure value from yourself and your own perspective? Are you sure your standard is high enough ….if you do?
I have been blessed, by a young man, who is almost half my age….who started working for this world of ours….trying to make things better for all of us…..at an age, when I-at the the same age-had thought of nothing but dates or lack there of, popularity or lack there of, beauty or lack thereof….etc.
I am amazed. When God was passing out selflessness….where was I? When He was passing out compassion…empathy…love….where was I?
Well…not kicking myself forever, my job is now smaller and more modest….but I do have a job. God is using me and will use me…I will get the “Reward” in the end…if I stay true….and what I have done and will do ….will count.
It is just….how awesome is the life that is dedicated and devoted to others…..from the beginning. A life that God can use to stretch from….and develope from….instead of one….like mine was….devoted to self…and unstretchable…but useable.
I beg you….use your life….take it and work it and shake it and love it….and get all the greatness out of it. One thing I know for sure…..God has given us all the “chance” for greatness….just some of us actually take him up on it. Thank God….I say Thank God…for those who take it up. They are the ones who make our lives full of the goodness we grab for and expect.
Thank you ….also….to all those takers…..I am comfortable…through no work of my own….I am healthy…through no work of my own…I am blessed….through no work of my own.
But bet your sweet life….I will do what I can…with what I now have left.
Posted by: quietly21 on: July 30, 2009
Ever have those days when nothing sparks your interest? You try to think of something…anything…that is jolly…happy….that you might be eager for or eager to do.
What do YOU do to get out of this? Do you just rest for that day and HOPE it will all be gone tomorrow?…this feeling?
Had one today. Finding a simple, no think chore, or job, was all I could do. Something I could just automatically do without thought …as my mind was mush …today.
